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Sunday, August 28, 2011

Life goes on :)

Scotland was a lovely country with lovely sights, lovely people, lovely food. Nothing quite like home though. The deluge of congratulations has been surreal, I'm really happy for the team - that we managed to exorcise the demons of over a decade and a half. That said I remain quite personally unfulfilled, though I've definitely grown and kept my dignity intact. Which probably puts me in good stead if I should choose to continue debating at university level - the faith that there's still unexploited potential, and the drive to vindicate myself.

There's so much uncertainty, and its making me quite uncomfortable. It's the oddity of having to navigate certain options, uncertain outcomes, certain pathways, and uncertain developments. Whatever comes, whatever happens, I'm quite sure I'll be able to take it positively and spin something good out of it. It's just at that stage where you don't know what's going to come, and that bit's that bit disconcerting.

Different future me's would probably come to different conclusions about the best decision I could have made right now. I want an exciting life story, with excerpts I could tell, doing things that are meaningful not just because I etched the meaning painfully on a granitic slate. The best things have come to me by accident though, and I do know that the more you want something the more it eludes you :)

JC life is slowly grinding to a halt, as everyone attests. Just like after Qatar, I'll be returning to a school where I know the people, but don't know what's happening. Three months, two major exams, and that's it.

This was a hard blogpost, and not a very good one.

2L @ 4:34 PM
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Hello Uncle...Bah Chor Mee one. I want chilli plus tur Kwa plus can I watch your CCTV playback of Jeff Lopez...=D