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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

WOW LUCAS TAGGED>! Cheerios! Anyway, reminded by Kah Hong to vary my posts, I will indulge in a session of senseless ranting.

What is the nature of teenage life? Is it pure mugging, suffering, living in the constant fear and shadow of talented and evil individuals like Gregory? People that simply pawn at everything they do? In HCI, especially, ZIBEINESS plays a part in everything. You can feel zibei about anything, overwhelmed by anyone. Its really terrible. You thought you had a niche, and some ruddy idiotic pouffe just comes and robs you of it. I thought I'd be quite good at scrabble when I came to hwachong, and I just had to find Sng and Ben, Weibin, Weimin, Mingwei and ALL THE OTHER PROZAIS.

I thought my math was good, look at Peter. I live in the shadow of others. Walking in their footsteps. How pathetic is that. I dowanna be a follower....

CRAP.

Its been really frustrating. Everyweek is simply jampacked with stuff and more stuff and more more stuff. And this more more keeps getting moremoremore. As Jiahan accurately puts it, "Yuhan says that by improving 10 pushups a week, at the end of JC we will be able to do 3000+ without stopping." Theoretically that is more than possible, but 10 a week? It may seem little, its totally....

And I'm only in Sec 1. I wonder how hellish JC life will be.

For starters tomorrow I will have to juggle a speech thingy and the Scrab competition. Its a wonder I still have time for ACE and all. Like Gregory, I'm inept at such things and will just have to leave it until the weekends, which are still jampacked.

Kevin says I have plenty of time. The single largest blatant lie that has ever come out from his foul mouth. 2 games of scrabble and blogging are all the leisure I have each day. Remember I'm not a mugger, I can't keep focussed on one thing for more than 10 minutes. I'm not like Daniel. He thinks nothing of memorising 600 words WORD FOR WORD. And replicating it with only one error on a script. I'm not him. I don't remember stuff unless they interest me. Really. Which explains my hopelessness at science.

I'm not quitting Jap afterall. I'll be rescheduling it to Mon/Thurs. Which means I will have a new teacher that isn't half as nice as Mr Wee and I will have to strive more.

I can only achieve this by one aim. Cutting down MSN. In one month, I will seek to halve my chatlog. Which means that I won't be starting convos anymore.

Its part of nerdifying myself (as if i'm already not) because I really need the extra time. I'm addicted to the computer. To MSN. I wish I could strike a perfect balance.

There are a lot of things I want to spill, a lot of thing I want to say, but its stuck inside me. It won't come out. Getting stuck writing your own thoughts. Pathetic. Worse than pathetic. I'm feeling really oblivious to whatever's happening now. Apathetically I will just try to pull past the week.

There's an interview with the Belgian Ambassador on Friday. I will have to peruse the questions myself, no doubt. Peter still hasn't sent me anything yet after his load of crap a few days ago. He had 4-5 hours to send it to me. I don't see why it isn't here yet.

In turmoil, seeking peace...

2L @ 8:45 PM
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Hello Uncle...Bah Chor Mee one. I want chilli plus tur Kwa plus can I watch your CCTV playback of Jeff Lopez...=D